Put In My Place

Currently, our family's future seems so uncertain. We might move to Utah, we might go back to school, we might change jobs, we might start a business, we might buy a house, etc. For a planner like me, the past few months have been trying. Changes have been uncertain and progress slow-moving. In all honesty, it has taken a great deal of effort to keep myself optimistic about the future.

One Sunday I was feeling especially frustrated and hopeless. In Sunday school the teacher was talking about how in the Book of Mormon Nephi asked to see the vision that his father saw (1 Nephi 11). He related it to us by saying how we can also ask the Lord to understand or know something that we desire to know. In my heart I said, "Heavenly Father, I just need to know that you will take care of my family. That's all I want to know. Help me to know that you will take care of my family". I didn't ask about school, jobs, homes, moves... I just wanted to believe that he would take care of us.

My answer came sooner than I expected in Relief Society as the teacher, during the lesson, wrote in huge letters on the board, "TRUST GOD". I studied the words and as I did the Spirit said to me, "Athena, has the Lord ever let you down before? Come on. Will you give him some credit?" It was almost comical and I nearly laughed at the scolding I felt from the Spirit. Despite the chastisement, peace filled my heart and tears came to my eyes. I pondered my life and all the ways it has not turned out as I planned - it has turned out even better. As I've followed the Lord, often by taking a step into the darkness, I've seen the light and it has been brighter and better than I could ever have imagined it.

So as we continue to step into the darkness, I'm going to give the Lord some credit and trust. He has a great track record in my book, and with a history like that I can't help but feel that the future be better than I could plan for myself. But really, who knew the Spirit could give such a tongue-lashing, huh? :)